I still haven't found what I am looking for

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 我其實不喜歡看電視，也沒空看，不過有時不看又不行，因為工作多，壓力又大，有時不舒緩下緊張的神經，人都會瘋。 

 我從小就孤獨，總是一個人默默學習，練習不同的本領，我的意志堅強，也不是多少個女人能和我比，像我意志這麼堅強的，能做共產黨，被敵人考問，也不會成為漢奸的。或者像電影「風聲」的共產黨，被日軍用火烤，用鐵打，用針刺，都不會供出同僚。(以前可能ＯＫ，現在意志大不如前，有些怕吃苦了）  

因為我意志堅強，能做到不打電話給男人，就算很想他，也不打，就算他求我，我雖心軟，經過考慮，我還是會不聽他的電話，不再見他。

 前男友，這幾天總打電話給我，他每次打來，都說想我，我沒有心軟，因為我和他分手必有分手的原因，如果再和好，那又重蹈覆轍，浪費時間。

那痛苦嗎？當然痛苦，不過短暫的苦，能換來將來的幸福。 

 有幾個男人在等我，我都是不理不睬，這涉及到了等價交換的問題，什麼叫等價交換？下篇會教給大家。 

 越說越離題，本來想說，看了英文電視，中間廣告時段，有首英文歌很好聽： U2的I still haven't found what I am looking for

I have climbed the highest mountains
I have run through the fields
Only to be with you
Only to be with you

I have run, I have crawled
I have scaled these city walls
Only to be with you
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

I have kissed honey lips
Felt the healing in her fingertips
It burned like fire
This burning desire
I have spoke with the tongue of angels
I have held the hand of a devil
It was warm in the night
I was cold as a stone
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

I believe in the Kingdom Come
Then all the colors will bleed into one
But yes I'm still running
You broke the bonds
You loosened the chains
You carried the cross
And my shame
And my shame
You know I believed it
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for